Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Mantente en la via correcta!

Mantente en la via correcta means Stay on Track! That is easier said than done, but it is possible. In life there are so many things that can throw us off “track”. Sick Kids, Spouse or Ex-Spouse, job, death of a friend or family member, or just the TV. The ability to stay focused takes work and devotion to the goal. I am a hit or miss person. But the fight within myself to go after those goals that I want whatever they may be.

So I weighed in at the gym on Friday night, down another 2 pounds, not good but not up. So there is a lot of work that still needs to be done. The one thing that I did was run/walk 4 miles. For most people that is a 30 minute run. In my whole life it has NEVER been a 30 minute run. The best time ever was 5 miles in 60 minutes; I would love to be back at that speed or faster. But it is not 1985 and I am not 16 years old!  But on Friday, I had a personal best time. 4 mile 72 minutes, it felt good to let out the anger, pain, and sweat on the treadmill. There is something about listening to music and being on the treadmill that makes me feel good. I can think about life, my kids, my friends, my goals, and my God. Sometimes it a good thought other times it is full of anger and regrets. Things that I haven’t accomplished, goals I haven’t reached, people I have offended or who have offended me. But after a while I remember that I always have the ability to start again. It is how we handle life is how we are remembered. I have noticed that since my dad had his stroke. I have thought about mortality and what I would want my kids to know about their grandparents, their parents, their Aunts and Uncles. The best legacy that we can leave future generations is that they know us as people mistakes and all. And that they know how much we love them.

So am I a person who answers the call and makes the world a better place by letting the people around me that I care about them? Do my kids know how proud of them I am? Do I tell people how I feel about them? Do I try to smile at a stranger?

Life is full of cross roads, It is our choice to chose the path that leads to our happiness.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

The Big Storm

On July 5, 2011 There was a HUGE dust storm in Chandler. It is called a Haboob. What ever you call it is a big mess. It covered the valley. It coated everything with this layer of dust. It went everywhere.  You couldn't even see in front of you. After the storm the next day I started thinking about how this storm is similar to how we treat people. We let things build up, we don't see what is really happening in a situation until there is a mess that is hard to clean up because of the words we say, the actions we take, & the thoughts we have. It takes a long time to clean up a mess. It takes a lot of work, but no matter how hard we work we can never get it back to the way it was before. With this storm, pools were cleaned the next day, cars were washed, and power lines were being repaired. But for days, weeks, and months there will still be dust to clean up. It covered everything, so there is no way to get it all at one time. And people will talk about the “BIG STORM” for years to come. The same is true in the way that we deal with people. A misplaced word can cause damage that can never be repaired. These storms like a Tsunami will take years to rebuild, and sometimes it cannot be rebuilt at all. The only way to prevent these types of messes is to think before you speak or before you act. That is so much easier said than done. The damage is too great and it can never be 100% fixed. I found this scripture from the Old Testament, Isaiah 54:17 kjv “No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord.”
This is a better visual of this scripture. There are times in my life that I have used my tongue as a sword. I believe we all do, it is part of being human. We say things in anger, in hate, in pain, we betray confidence, or we give looks that say the nasty things we are thinking. But if we take the time to remember that these actions will cause a mess that will take forever to clean up. Maybe we can have a kinder and more loving world. There were some cars that didn’t get any dust on them because they were safely protected in a garage.  There has to be a “garage” for our thoughts before we let them out and create a mess.

So what does all of this have to do with the weight loss journey??

The storm prevented my favorite workout. Running the Track at Corona
We like the storm put garbage into our bodies and wonder why we have a “Health” storm and it takes years to clean up.
That I can use food to bury my anger, hurt, and fears.
Because of the storm I watched a movie called “Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead” It was a great motivation.

The movie is about a man’s journey with a Juice only diet. I was amazed how just a little bit of change can make a HUGE difference in your life. And Yes, I am pondering trying it because I like the idea of losing 40 pounds in a month. But because it is so hot in Arizona the thought of drinking for all my meals does sound appealing. I do believe that we can heal our bodies from the inside out. That by cutting out processed foods, caffenne, tabacco (this one effects me personally, because the doctors have said that my dad’d smoking habit is the reason he has COPD, the stroke, and heart disease) we can heal our heart, mind, and soul. I know for me personally since I started really looking at what I eat, that I have felt better.

I found out about a 5K on July 16th, which I am thinking about running. I need to run more to get the calories burning.  I must keep moving forward because there is so much life has to offer.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

"I know Its Hard to Love Me but Couldn’t You Please Just Try Anyway."

Being able to workout this Holiday Weekend was AWESOME!! Thank you so much Jen, for running on the treadmill next to me at the gym!! I was able to swim most of the weekend and As of Saturday was down to 288 pounds! That is 12 pounds total since I have started. More importantly it is 38 pound to go towards the 1st 50 pounds that need to be lost. The new plan is to walk at least 1 hour a day. Ideally it will be 3 hours a day. 1 hour before work and 2 after work. I did restart the food journal. The reason that thing works so well is that if I have to write it down then it makes it harder to put it in your mouth. I believe everyone wants to believe that they are doing the right thing all the time. Having to write down that you are making a bad choice well that just stops you. (I hope)

I heard this saying this weekend. "I know Its Hard to Love Me but Couldn’t You Please Just Try Anyway." It made me think how many of us are willing to take the time, effort, patience, & care. To love the one that is hard to love. Why are we afraid to love the one who looks different, acts different, or believes differently? Unconditional Love is the only thing that can make this world a better place.

So what would that have to do with weight loss? I believe the one person I have the hardest time to love is myself. I know my faults. I don’t trust that at all times I will make the right choices. I know that I will say something to offend or hurt someone else without trying. I know someone will offend me and I will take it personally when I really should brush it off. That is when I start to look for ways to feel better, i.e – Eat bad food choices. Not exercising, or not writing in the food journal.

So I am looking for a methods to learn to love myself. I thought look for 5 positive qualities that I have a day. (It didn’t work. Besides my perfect teeth. I couldn’t find anything else that didn’t involve my kids.)

So I found this online: Stew Smith’s Downloadable Workout Series
The 45 Day Beginner Program
Daily Affirmations:
I am Strong
I am Fit
I am Determined
I will Succeed

So knowing that the wedding is 59 days away (Yes, Camerat, I do have a countdown as well) I am going to say these things everyday for the next 45 days.

This weight loss needs to be permanent. The only way that this will happen is if I change everything.

Friday, July 1, 2011

The Scale and True Freedom

So I weighed in last night, the scale said 292 pounds. That is 8 pounds down, not bad for weighing in after work in my work clothes. Only 42 more pounds to go before September and I reach my goal. I didn’t walk last night, I was too tired. I also ate late at night. Kind of Bummed, but I can always restart. (Thank Goodness for That!!) I am not perfect, but I have to admit when I make a mistake. I have to be more accountable to myself, if I want to achieve this goal.

This being the Fourth of July weekend. I have been thinking a lot about this great holiday. I know that there were and are many people who stand up to make this country amazing. There are those who are willing to die to keep my idea of freedom safe. There are those who are willing to be spat, threatened, or cussed out because of their beliefs. We all have that ability to stand up to make this world a much better place.  My ex-husband and I have tried to teach our children these same values. For the past 2 years I have had Ben and Beth with me, while Bert was with this dad. My parents and I would go to Rustler’s Roost with the kids, eat BBQ & watch the fireworks. (Yes, being indoors is a lot nicer than 100+ degrees plus outside) This year because of my dad’s stroke and the progression of his COPD, we will not be going there. My sweet Ben has said “We should make Grandpa Tom a BBQ. So he doesn’t miss the 4th of July” I look at Ben’s attitude as real Freedom. He understand compassion, he understands serving others, and he is very kind and loving. (He is a blessing in my life. I have learned so much from him.)

True and Real Freedom will come to my children when I have lost the extra weight that is holding me back from what I can and will be. I believe that all of us have “Extra Weight” that holds us back. It might be our financial situation, how we treat our spouse, how we have let our spouse treat us, how we treat our kids, how we treat our friends, how we treat our neighbors, but most of all how we treat ourselves. Do we see how living an honest, helpful, caring life can make the world better? Do we look to the sky and see the possibilities that we can accomplish?  Or do we think that we are in a pit that we cannot get out of. I know myself, I have a tendency to look at the pit and think that is all there is in life.

Relationships are to be cherished. That means putting in the time and effort to let the important people in your life that you care. It is being willing to give a sincere apology when you have caused a hurt to someone. It is giving forgiveness to other, even if they don’t apologize. It is asking yourself, Did I do any good today? Did I make a difference? Being real and genuine, you will always, make a difference to someone.

I am blessed with many friends who love this country so much that they are willing to serve in our military. I am in awe of their families who support them as they do this dangerous work. (Without a lot of people saying Thank you, may I add) I hope and pray that some day one of my children will be attending one of our military academies. It is one of my biggest regrets that I have because of being overweight and obese most of my life is that I was unable to serve my country in the U.S. Military. We all have the ability to serve and support those who make this country great.
True Angie, Always Smiling

One of the people I know who has made this Country Great without serving in the Military is Angie Bigler Allen; she passed away yesterday June 30, 2011 after a fight with Breast Cancer. Angie was a type of person who would smile at you, ask how you were doing, got to know her neighbors, and served her husband and kids. Always with a positive attitude and smile. A friend of Angie’s posted this quote on her husband’s Facebook Wall; Ralph Waldo Emerson said, "To laugh often and love much; to win the respect of intelligent persons and the affection of children; to earn the approbation of honest citizens and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to give of one's self; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sing with exultation; to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived . . . this is to have succeeded." Angie is a success! This is so true of Angie.

We all can be a success if we want to, we all can make this a better world for ourselves, our children, and future generations. It is as simple as doing 1 nice thing today for someone that doesn’t expect it. In that you find True Freedom, In that you honor those who have sacrificed for this wonderful country!            

Have a wonderful Fourth of July!